Boring into mine
Haunting me many a time
Fearing love may creep by
Oh, if only you'd realise
The power you behold
Capable of stealing
My heart and my soul
Searching deep inside
And yet again I find
A child in tears
Withering with fright
If only you're a dream
Able for me to wake
But you're my memory
I'm unable to shake
Please set me free
Please let me set me free
*haunted by a beautiful dream -- a deepset memory* I've found new mottos in life!!
+ Colours in life include black and white
+ An apple a day is seven apples a week
+ Birds of the same feathers are the same birds
Ja matta na!
*resumes sleeping in lalaland...* I'm going to let go...
I may not be able to forget, actually, I definitely can't forget, but at least I have nothing in concern anymore...
I'll be letting go of a person, a string of memories and maybe something more. How many times have I repeated myself? Over and over again.. telling myself it's time to let go, I'm supposed to let go cos' it shouldn't be owned by me!
But no, over and over again, I chickened out and chose not to let go.
Why is it so hard anyway? I don't own it in the first place, so why is it difficult for me to 'disown' it? Because I care?? Does that I mean that I don't care now??? Most probably~
Anyway, I deleted the email address, tel no. and what-so-ever from my messenger, handphone, email accounts etc.. I'm most likely regretting now, and I still remembers all those infos I all-so-delibrately lost, but I'm too lazy to undo what had been done... and too tired too...
When I don't have them, I'm in a period whereby I don't own them...
When I gains them, I obtains something new...
But when I ignore them? Throw them away? Lost them? Did I lose something on the way? It just headed back to square 1, that's all..
Sure, it's painfull and hurts more to think I can be this bitchy... but oh well.. ^^;;;